So… I met him over dinner meeting today and I gave him the present. The dinner was slightly weird because I was too overthinking and he was slightly quiet, I guess it’s hard to turn things around when we haven’t been talking/seeing each other for quite some time. *note: he recently started ‘bro’-ing me, which I hate it so much, I guess I’m the one who is in friend zone*
On the walk to MTR, I was a bit reluctant to talk about my family and emotion problems to him, but he was easy on me, distracted me with other topics as he saw me a bit, quiet. In the end, I find myself hard to talk to him about it, so I brushed it off. I have more important agenda. And I told him how I feel before we go our own ways at the MTR station, at the platform. My speech supposed to be at least 1 minute long but the nervousness turned it into a 15 seconds super speed confession.
“Do you remember that time I was in Shanghai and I came back early? Actually I wanted to come back and see you.”
He didn’t look surprised.
“And I realized I really like you.”
His face was on full-blown WTF look and we were both on panicked mood in the middle of the crowd, babbled. So I told him.
“We can not talk about this right now….. We can talk about this later.”
So I walked away. I know I need to go. As soon as I was on the train, he texted me.
Sorry about just now
I wasn’t prepare for a relationship thing
Need some time to think
Have a good night
I know. I was too much.
I understand, it’s too random
At this stage, I am feeling alright, glad, happy, and a gist of nervousness. Because, at least I have said it out loud, got it out of my chest after for more than 3 months.