It’s not my fight but it’s our fight.

Today Hong Kong still feeling tense as the protest still on. I am feeling upset and I couldn’t think straight too and study well. I wanted to be part of them too.

I guess i will follow my friend out tomorrow and go protest.

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Pray for HK.

The Upsetting situation.

It’s 2.27am in the morning and I’m still wide awake. HK is having a fight against the anti-democratic government and it is more or less like what happened to Malaysia last year and it frustrates me. I am worried about my friends and HK’s future.

All I can do is pray for HK. .

Is love a conscious choice?

Is love a conscious choice? 

I was talking with my bff (slim bitch) just now and as usual we talked about relationship problem again.

I don’t think it is. But my friend she did it, she thinks that is a conscious choice that she could choose who she fall in love with and take back her love for others just with a snap of her fingers.

I simply don’t get it. Dear readers, what do you think?

The alternate universe male version of me.

When I figure out the alternate universe male version of me exists in real life is my bff’s (fat bitch) new found love, my mind blown a little. It’s not that I am jealous or what. I am not. Just feeling slightly creep out by the idea that my bff might be dating the male version of me one day in future. Oh, one more thing, her mom was like, “I like this boy. He is mature and stable.” I was like, awwww thank you for praising me although she is obviously not praising me. But I do feel proud LOL.

Maybe I do have potential in me that someone will like me. Maybe. Or just me daydreaming.

Feeling nothing is somewhat easier.

Apathy. Emotional vacuum. You know, emotion sometimes hit you at wrong time wrong place but recently I have been having apathy during wrong time, when I need them most. Because if I try to feel them I might lose it. Again and again. I will lose it. I don’t think I will be able to hold myself back for long especially it’s in public.

Feeling nothing is somewhat easier.

Catharsis wanted.

How can I be apathy and empathy at the same time? I wish I have the answer to this.

I am feeling so alone. So lonely that I need the release. Catharsis of some sorts. Sexual release if I could.

The more I realize, me being bisexual is highly probable if I love someone enough. Its possible.

I am the sentimental one.

The feeling of running away. Far, far away.

I woke up with the sense of frustration. The frustration of inadequacy.

I need to get rid of them. I need to feel the control. Of all those feelings. I need not them to invade my daily routine and my sanity and my study.

I don’t feel like calling or talking to anyone but D. But I don’t have the courage to do so. Or time. And timezone problem too.

I am always too emotional. I am always the too sentimental one. I need to keep myself away from feeling it.

24 Best Romantic Hacks For Your Relationship, As Explained By 13 People

24 Best Romantic Hacks For Your Relationship, As Explained By 13 People

Great piece.

Thought Catalog

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Producer’s note: Someone on Quora asked: What are the best romantic relationship hacks? Here are some of the best answers that’s been pulled from the thread.


1. Tarek Nassar

Here’s one, tested and approved. Keep a small notebook, well hidden from her, and from time to time, write down a note about something she liked, wanted to buy, a place she wanted to go or something she wanted to do. Keep the dates as well. Then, on a special occasion or when you can afford it (timewise as well as moneywise), get her that little something she wanted to buy or take her out to that restaurant she fancied etc. The key is NOT to do this immediately after she asks for it but rather to wait long enough for “it” to leave her immediate thoughts. With this, she knows you care but more…

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The animal inside me.

Today wasn’t my best day. I mean, I don’t feel the best of me that I wouldn’t like to be alone. I want someone to be around someone constantly so that I could be functional. At least. I could finish my homework.

I am feeling moody today and I painted to get my psyhe out.

Nobody is there. He is not around and will never be around.

What I crave for, nothing could satisfy me.

The animal inside me. Destroy me a little from within.

The innocent boy who I knew back then.

For which, I miss D. Today is his first day in his new university and he is freshman all over. I miss him dearly and it reminds me when I first met him during our freshman year. He was innocent, young and free. Now my baby boy has grown up for just a bit. And I miss him. He might never be the same anymore but I still love him for who he is.